MeryllGem

“maarte kaya yun” “magsisisi ka bahala ka”

mga salita na naalala ko bago ko pa man makilala si bof..

2nd year high ako when me and my childhood friends form a group called Best Life.. mostly magpipinsan kaming part ng group na ito. kami kami na iyong mga magkkasamang lumaki eh..

so ayun na nga.. we were jolly at talagang pag nagsama sama kami sobrang magugulo ang buong zona.. ilang days na ang lumipas ng nagsimula ng may sumali sa amin.. and I enjoyed it. syempre iisang lugar kami pero dahil nga sa di naman ako palalabas ung mga pinsan ko lang din kilala ko. so pumayag kami. there were 3 kuyas na nakialla ko.. hahaha.. di ko talaga sila kilala pero mabait sila.. sweet and caring…

ilang araw din ang lumipas ng may 2 girls daw ang gusto sumali.. pero may iba sa amin na kumontra.. haha. abah malay ko.. sabi ko nga di ko naman kilala mga nasa lugar namin.. ehh kaklase pala nila.. so ayun..

but how if I listen to them? how if I never let those two girls na makilala at maging kaibigan namin? haha…

wala akong B.o.F (best of friends) na nakilala…

nakakaloka noh? na kung sino pa iyong tao na di ko daw makakasundo eh siya pang pinakaclose ko sa group… syempre di naman ganon kabilis na naging close kami. may mga away din kami.. hahaha.. 2nd year pa lang kami nun so isip bata pa talaga kami and like what I said di lang po ang LOVE Relationship ang may process..

even friendship.. di porket nakilala mo na sila ngayon bukas sobrang close na kayo.. it takes time..

for the first year adjusting pa kami kasi sila na ang last na hinayaan namin na maging part ng best life..

this was the first picture na magkasama kami! hahah! mga neneng pa kami ngay! hahaha

hahaha… I can also say na… part ako ng isang love story niya na pareho naming di makakalimutan! yeah!! hahaha… ang hirap pa naman din maging cupid ng dalawang fighting love birds! hahaha„,

ui ui!! I will never forget that day! sila lang kasi halos kasama ko.. (lagi naman eh)

haha! ayan ang fighting love birds! break na sila dyan at PURE FRIENDS daw! hahah! may chemistry kaya sila! lalalala! hahaha…

kuya kuyahan ko po yang guy yeah! kuya! inampon ng nanay kO! choz! pero parang ganon na nga.. hahaha..

andun ako ng sagutin niya si kuya.. eh paano naman kasi that’s my day.. the day I won as SK councilor.! naks! double celebration! hahaha.. yun din ang day na sinagot siya! aigoo! hahaha…di pa uso camera sa akin nun so wala pa kami gaano pics that time.. hahaha..

closer ! hahaha… ayiiieee!! :)) kinikilig ako! hahaha….

ang cute namin noh? haha.. syempre we’re friends eh! so kahit na masakit ang naging break up nila (eh paano birthday pa nung isa kong best nung nagbreak sila) mga pasaway eh noh? hahaha.. pinatunayan lang ng picture na pinakita ko na even after break ups walang makakapigil sa friendships namin.. apir!

eh bakit ko ba ginawa ang blog na ito? kung mapapasnin niyo sa unang statement ko eh ung mga foul words na sinabi about sa kanila/kanya…

siguro nga maarte si bof! hahah! hmmmmmm.. let me think?? choz! di noh! simple nga yan eh.. mahinhin! ay grabe! TAHIMIK!! pero makulit pag kasama ko.. hahaha. lumalabas kakulitan eh pag kasama ako! hahaha.. kung nakinig ako sa kanila.. I will surely miss one greates thing in life.. to meet a person who will listen understand and cares for me… di ko lang naman basta bestfriend si bof eh.. I even considered her my sister.. (eeee ahead siya sa akin walang kontra.. hahaha.. mga 13 days ahead) hahaha…

don’t judge a person by what other says…it’s very unfair to those person if you judge them without even knowing them personally…

picture of me and bof together… random…

we both love dancing… ;)

picture namin ito during the last practice na kasama ako.. wala lang sabit lang kami ni bof di naman kami kasali.. hahaha

lunch date with ate star and spirit warriors.. :)

eto na iyong mga days na halos araw-araw na kami magkakasama kasi malapit lapit na din ang aking pag-alis! :D

kasal ng kuya niya ito! hehehe.. :D abay to the maxx ang peg.. choz..

sa house nila ito.. hang out lang with best life… hihi.. 2009 pa ata ito or 2010 taken.. hahaha

december 14… hihi!! kasama ko sila nag-aayos for my baby denise’s christening… :) busy days!

get together ulit with yp’s… and it was taken right after niya magmessage sa akin! eeeeee… kasi nga program so farewell message! though di pa ito ung last kasi dec4 ito eh..

ang taba ko! hahaha!!! :)) anyways! yeah… dec.4 pa din ito nung nagpicnic kami! hahaha.. picnic sa ilog! :)))

sa ford ito.. pauwi.. galing kami sa school ko.. CLSU… may kinuha lang kapatid ko kasama niya bestfriend niya tas ayun sabit kami ni bof! hahaha… oh di ba kung saan saan kami sumasabit! hahaha…

she is one of my bestfriends! yeah!! I have 5 and each one of them have different characteristics…

friendship is tested.. sabi nga niya sa akin nuon.. wala daw distance ang sisira ng friendship namin.. wala lang… lagi kasi kami magkausap nito sa text so namiss ko siya ng sobra.. dati kasi personal eh tas ngayon ayan text na lang! hahaha… hahahaha…

My heart is thrilled…
I feel like butterflies are flying around me…
My brain is shouting…
I feel like it is starting to burst…

… at first everything is unclear…
no one is sure of what and how…
this time, we’re there…
we are now fulfilling our dreams…

going through a lot of jobs…
working so hard…
finishing before due time…
I can say it’s remarkable…

being on top?
that’s more amazing..
it’s not just a snap…
You take great courage
…to climb where you are right now…

I wanna say I’m proud of you…
I wanna share a precious moment with you…
but for now, this is all I can do..
to write a poem, saying CONGRATS!

di na ako gulat na maging top 1 ka… your always that girl who is very deciacated, passionate…

alam ko gaano kahirap yang pinagdadaanan mo.. you are now having a lot of pressure…

I know somehow you are sad like me, being so far from them…

no one to cry on, to lean on to talk to…

but a certain connection, yun yung pinanghahawakan natin!

sabi mo wag ako mstress! IKAW DIN! kasi kung gaano ako kstress mas ka…you don’t have the freedom…

GOD BLESS !

I am here, standing
Looking at a distance
Staring at you
with the arms of another

… Letting my tears flow
When no one else around
trying to forget
the feelings that I have

I will finally letting it go
the pain I endure for loving you so
Letting it go, letting it go

The fairy tale I dream of
Is starting to fade
it is running away from me
making me feel the reality

i always have no option or choice..

this feeling..

i felt this a year ago!

the pain came back!

i remembered those days and now??

it’s even harder to hold and bear…

i think I’ll collapse if this continue…

tell me it’s not yet the end?
tell me it’s just the start of a new beginning..
tell me you never meant to hurt me..
tell me you did not want to see me crying..

just tell me you love me…
it’s more than enough…

i want to be alone..
i want to have a journey in my own world..
i want to put away things that give pain…
this is how I endure everything that’s happening…

… I can pretend, until when..
I can smile, and covered the tears..
I can enjoy, and think nothings happening..
but I can’t remove this mask in my face…

I hate it!
I don’t want it..
Screw things!

HOME is a place where you can have a rest…
a place where you can think..
a place where you can cry all night..
a place where you can be yourself..

… just wanna let them know..
wanna let them hear…
wanna let them see..
how miserable my life is
and miss my Home..

when my heart first beat
it’s you I think
my heart and my mind
agree for the first time

… and when it broke into pieces
my mind tell me
it’s my hearts fault
until now i can’t make them as one

I never been good
I never been silent
I never been caring
until you came
and change everything!

having troublesome for months now,
remembering what I told them before
“I will take 3 years or more”
and I know it’s true,
I cry hard to accept the fact and cope with it…
… but as time goes by,
as my age add 1 per year,
everything changed….
I act as a teenager or sometimes a kid
hey, it’s not bad though…
but I am matured enough to think
based to my age..

this june, it will be 7 years since then.„
It will be the last stage and we’ll be opening of new chapter…
we grew up and I’m happy for that..
we fought several times, hundred times!
we cry, we laugh, we sing, we dance, we play,
together we enjoy life…
we know the best of each other..
but what’s amazing?
we know the weaknesses and worst,
but never used it to bring one down..
and now? I’m proud to say…
we’re beside each other through ups and downs..

I took for granted some of them,
I’m sorry..
but you know as well..
How I love you..
I will definitely treasure
and remembered times I’m with you…
Thanks you for the wonderful friendship..:)